We’re back from Utah and two days after we got home, my father-in-law e-mailed to tell us he is having serious heart trouble. If we hadn’t just spent two wonderful weeks with him, I would be panicking. I would be buying an airline ticket with a credit card to at least send my husband down. I just couldn’t accept almost 4 years ago being the last time he would ever see his dad.
In his e-mail, he used the words “not good” and “dangerous”. It will be determined later this month what kind of pacemaker he will have and whether a defibrillator will be necessary on top of that. I don’t know what the Lord’s will is. I hope so much that he will make it through this, but I’m scared. I went to visit my mom last night and she could tell I had been crying.
I’m grateful Heavenly Father gave us the courage to take our trip to Utah even though it would put a major strain on our finances. I knew it would work out somehow. We realized with the trading of schedules he did, my husband will be working on-call twice within a month, which will provide a lot of overtime.
I’m glad I thought to take a picture of each one of the kids with their grandparents before we left and one of my husband with them. How wonderful that he got to have some bonding experiences with his dad to remember. I’m praying to accept whatever the outcome will be and for his whole family. He is a great source of strength, love, and wisdom for all of us. It was the way he treated his wife that convinced me that my husband would treat me well if I married him. After over 30 years of marriage, he still held her hand wherever they went and he opened doors for her. I have never heard him speak a harsh word to anyone and no matter how badly his children mess up, he shows them unconditional love. He is patient and kind.
It’s hard not to sob as I write this. The thought of losing him is overwhelming. Now we need decide prayerfully what our plan will be when he has his surgery. Should we make another trip happen?
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